Holy Spirit, my wonderful Counselor and Helper, I come to You with confidence, knowing that You love me. Although I do not understand what is happening, I know You protect my heart, even when it seems to be overlooked.
Yet something stirs within me; it is not abandonment, but something more quieter, deeper—a certainty that required no witnesses. The solitude of my life is not an empty absence, but a secret school where my soul can breathe without the noise of human approval.
Every area of my life is undergoing rigorous scrutiny. It is in this silence that my heart grows—not as the proud grow, but toward You, Lord. And my heart—that invisible space where true battles are fought—is what Heaven has been watching all this time. For while people are in a frenzy for “likes,” You seek something different: a heart You can trust.
You have found my heart, and I have been admitted to this secret school; it is my greatest honor. Please grant me the grace needed to graduate with honors. May my diploma bring You glory and offer hope to those around me. Please spare me from ever becoming a stumbling block to anyone who trusts in You.
“Don’t let those who trust in you be ashamed because of me, O Sovereign Lord of Heaven’s Armies. Don’t let me cause them to be humiliated, O God of Israel. For I endure insults for your sake; humiliation is written all over my face.” (Psalms 69:6-7 NLT).
My Garden of Exotic Thoughts
Just like a film developer, in the darkest part of the room God is developing our character. At the time, we do not understand or at least myself, what is happening? However, God is sovereign, and God is in control and when I feel abandoned or neglected the hands of God is developing me, my character, my faith, for his purpose and Glory. In the end, throughout my journey with the Lord I have understood that my life is not my own and he does whatever he pleases. As I have a covenant with the Living God, the holy of holies, the king of kings, in the midst of all my trial even in the darkness of my life I have to learn how to trust him when I don’t see him. Knowing that he is God, and God all by himself.