My story starts with a soul’s conversation with itself in a far away land:
“Things are not going well in my surroundings. I’m in great trouble and disgrace. The wall of my city has been torn down. Its gates have been consumed by fire. I’ve been deprived from all I know and love, I’ve left dry as a desert, I cannot even weep, there is no more tears left in my eyes”.
In this scenario, exiled from all known comfort, in my anguish I found what I wanted to believe it was a sweet refuge, delighting, nurturing companionship! And inadvertently I fell madly in love and into relationship out of marriage, such an unthinkable thing! I ran to the arms of a stranger and away from the God of my fathers. I opened up my heart to him with no reserve. My emotions grew untamed, I could not separate my thoughts from him. He was my constant companion and source of loneliness also!
I know this is dead wrong, but I am also reluctant to give up this love that has become a desperate life giving source because I could see and touch. I’ve given free rein to this searching till I got drunk with this forbidden love. I long even for a small crumb of his attention, but he is cold, he has eyes but he does not see me.
This is the tragic quest of a mere soul that is away from God, searching for the truth. When your soul is dry, you feel lonely and unfulfilled, you try to fill that void with food, sex, exercise, you become chemicals dependent, etc. You easily fall in the trap of addiction. All those things become idols and you think they are your refuge. You cannot take them away from your mind, you depend on them. But they are cold, they cannot satisfy your longing and cannot fill that void. Only when you open up your heart to the Lord Jesus Christ and you start a relationship with Him, then your whole universe changes!
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
(Matthew 11:28).
This is the answer for all those who are tired, who have tried many things and the emptiness still remains there. Just ask the Lord Jesus to come to your heart and let Him be known to you and He will come. He loves you!