When a Spouse Dies of a Long Illness

Lord Jesus, how majestic is your name in all the earth!

You are the only one able to keep me from falling and fill my heart with joy!

“To the only God our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, might and authority, from all ages past, and now, and for ever and ever! Amen.” (Jude 1:25)

Lord, when a spouse dies, the heart of the surviving spouse is broken. The anguish seems to be an unbeatable giant. The whole creation stands still and devastating agony reigns. Nevertheless, all his/her environment is full of compassion. Everyone looks for the opportunity to help in any possible way.

After the grieving process, the surviving spouse is seen as an honorable widow. The community talks about his/her good deeds. They are admired for their sacrificial love and devotion to the deceased.

The single community regards them as trustworthy people because they kept their vow, “Til death do us part.” In this way, death is not that debilitating monster it seemed to be. But through this vast valley of sorrow, a beautiful garden of the most fragrant roses boomed. The name of the garden is character, integrity, fear of the Lord!

A divorced woman is totally the opposite, she loses all her close friends and now she is seen as a rival. A divorced woman is not only disowned by her husband, but for society as well. God hates divorce because it destroys the family, and He says:

“And why isn’t God pleased? It’s because He knows that each of you men as been unfaithful to the wife you married when you were young. You promised that she would be your partner, but now you have broken that promise.” (Malachi 2:14).

God strengthens both the widowed and the divorced. Both has a place in the society, and both can enjoy a full and satisfied life, if that life is governed by the Lordship of Jesus Christ.

This is my Story! What is yours?

A Letter to God

A Carefree Living

Father, there is a deep longing in my soul to worship you in the heavenly way. In my soul the penetrating desire to love and worship You increases. This morning I asked you to help me to worship you heaven style, my thought was to express my gratitude and love with all kind of emotions. But instead, You have introduced me into an atmosphere of tender care, it’s as if my prayer is answered with Your tender love for me. It’s a carefree feeling, although there are lots of inconvenient issues. There is a blessed assurance deep inside my soul that everything is in Divine order for me.

Is this worship heavenly style? It is not I who gives you, but you, infusing your life in my spirit! I am the container, a deep pot and you fill it with your essence! You created me twice, the first time you formed me from the dust and breathed the breath of life into my nose (Genesis 2: 7). In that state I was just a living person, very knowledgeable about the natural environment. I was very aware of my dusty habitat and enjoyed the land. But the law of gravity had a strong hold on me and my eyes were always fixed downward. And there is just room for myself, because I am just a living person.

Not so with Your second creation, dust was not the composing ingredient. In my first creation there was no blood. Blood, was the main factor through the Spirit of God to make the second creation. And Ephesians 2:10 says I am God’s masterpiece. He created me anew in Christ Jesus. God ‘s purpose in creating me the second time is different than the first. The first time He created me a living person, now He created me for a life of good deeds.

Those good deeds include a spiritual temple, according to 1 Peter 2:5, God created me as a living stone that He uses to build His residence and He also made me His holy priest. No wonder I feel so cared for by You!  Storms come and go and I am carefree, there is an abundance of well-being within me that prevents me from worrying.

Now I am so aware of how it is worshiped in heaven. “…Christ fills all things everywhere with Himself”  (Ephesians 1:23).  And in Him I’m full and complete. I am so cared for by You! This atmosphere of complete well-being is heavenly worship! Thank you for this revelation. Amen.

This is My Story! What is yours?

A Solution to a Frightened Thought

A Letter to my Friend in Asia

On November 1, 2017, a sudden thought pierced my soul.

Beloved friend.

If all of the sudden, I don’t hear from you and I have no way to find out what happened! Oh my mind, … my heart got frozen! Then I thought, if I disappear you have no way to know either. It saddened me because I imagined that you may be concerned also. Then the greatest and most powerful human emotion visited me, grief; which I also embraced it as a testament to all the things that bring true happiness, love, appreciation, and gratitude.

Friend, I like to be prepared ahead of time for every small and big thing. In case our relationship be suddenly asunder from your side or from mine, we must be prepared ahead of time. We have nobody to inquire about our whereabouts. We have to keep our minds focused on that our relationship was born in God’s heart. And it will continue till eternity.

I’m planning to live 50 more years. My beloved friend, I’m not in the death business, nevertheless, our life is like a vapor. If one day you don’t hear from me and you don’t see me on FB, then check my Instagram, if I’m not there either, then is because He (the Lord) entered me into His marital chamber. But from there we, He and I– (Oh my God! This thought warms my heart! Wow,) what a joy that will be!), will be loving you!

My lovely friend, human beings won’t understand this relationship, because it’s not human, so just let’s keep it between us five (wow… 5! =Grace) Father, Son and Holy Spirit, you and I.

I pray you see my point, if not my darling child, we have no other option, I suppose, unless you do. But as you quoted Acts 17:28, in your first text to me, I quote it back to you now.
“For in Him we live and move and have our being…”


Beautiful child of God, I really, really love you! God wanted it this way!

“Two people can resist an attack that would defeat one person alone. A rope made of three cords is  hard to break.” Ecclesiastes 4:12

There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.” John 15:13.

This is my story! What is yours?


A “NO” Sweeter than Honey

“I know that everything God does will endure forever;

nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it…”
‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭3:14‬ ‭

When you desperately want something, you only care about a “YES”. Thirteen years ago, I prayed and fasted, pouring out my soul before God, begging for something that I thought I could not live without. My pierced soul and my lake of tears did not move the Lord to say “Yes.” Because of this, I wondered with pain in my soul for a long time. But today I want to shout to the top of the mountain that everything God does is perfect and that a “NO” of Him, is sweeter than honey. I am exuberantly delighted! Praise the Lord! He had a better plan for me!

This is My Story: What is yours?

The Soul’s Tiny Ripples of Hope

Something must be cooking in the atmosphere! There is a feeling of numbness that lingers in the cleft of the soul. It is a feeling of indecision, a feeling of knowing nothing.

Tiny ripples of hope jump here and there dragging the longing for a friendship, but the idea of entertaining frightens the weak self of hers. She has no plan for the future, no desire of anything in this world. Everything is tasteless, nothing has flavor.

What is life in this planet? The soul has digs for knowledge that is unsearchable, out of her reach. An introspective look shows the true longing and hope of the soul is God! Money does not satisfy. Relationship comes and goes, even the most faithful human relationship is lost through death. There is nothing secure on earth. This world is flavorless and the tiny ripples of hope surge, just to fade into the depth of the unknown.

In 1 Corinthians 13:8-10, 12-13 the Apostle gives the answer to the search of the soul:

The missing link the soul is searching for, is love. God is love! This is why love never ends. Our great grief is that we only know in part, but when the perfect comes, the partial will be set aside. And we will know fully, then hope won’t be needed anymore. One thing will remain forever and that is Love!

Your soul can call upon that Love right now. Say this prayer:

“Dear God, there is a void in my soul and nothing will fill it, but your love. I’m a sinner. I receive Jesus as my Savior. Forgive my sins and write my name in your book in heaven. Please, let me experience the joy of my salvation. Thank you. Amen.

“Love never ends… For we know in part, and we prophesy in part, but when what is perfect comes, the partial will be set aside… For now we see in a mirror indirectly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know in part, but then I will know fully, just as I have been fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love.”

1 Corinthians 13:8-10,12-13 NET

This is my story, what is yours?

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The Influence of Beauty

This is a prayer from the Journal of my Struggles (9/17/18)

My beautiful Comforter, I exalt You! Thank you for the display of beauty that you give me to strengthen me in this journey.

Thinking about the power of beauty, a little slave woman springs up in my mind. That feeble, little woman challenged the authority of the most powerful man in the existing world. The Book of Exodus, in the Sacred Scriptures, gives us the narrative of this awesome event.

““And the woman conceived and bore a son, and when she saw him, that he was a beautiful child, she hid him three months.” Exodus 2:2

The strict law was, “… to cast every son that is born into the river…” Exodus 1:24. The beauty of the baby Moses enticed his mother to risk her own life to protect him.

What is it in beauty that influences and entices people to do illogical things?

Jacob worked 14 years for Rachael’s beauty! Beauty comes in different tones and shades and drives us on unknown paths! Physical appearance is the gateway to enter and discover the shades and tones of intellect, which is the beauty of the soul and the richness of the spirit!

The gateway Jay, an acquaintance, offers is full—scale, he is very attractive, his soul is beautiful, his spirit is rich, nevertheless, his intellect is underdeveloped. Physical beauty is temporal, the best diet, exercise and good health, are no match for the biological clock. Physical beauty is very attractive, but with the passing of days, the invincible law of gravity is winning, pulling down till this physical beauty succumbs to the grave.

Knowing physical beauty’s destiny, we should allow it to influence in a full—scale. Beauty attracts others and, immediately the intellect must step up to enhance the influence of the outer beauty . The way to deepen the intellect into knowledge, is going to the source. “ The Lord is the source of wisdom; knowledge and understanding come from his mouth.” Proverbs 2:6.

A sharp intellect is the portal for the beauty of the soul with its different shades that are not affected by the law of gravity, these internal beauties are not touched by gravity. They are elevated as the days pass by.

The last, but not the least is the gate of the spirit. This beauty is priceless! If we could only comprehend the spirit is immortal, then we will nourish it accordingly. The beauty of the spirit is immeasurably superior to the constant deteriorating physical. With the passage of time, the spirit grows and becomes wiser, while physical beauty declines every day.

 The image of God is in our spirit, not in our physical counterpart. This understanding prompts us to seek God! The spirit nourished with the Word of God is beauty with wisdom and intelligence. Wisdom is a source of  life, strength and joy! The Book of Wisdom says that beauty without wisdom is like a gold ring in a pig’s snout (Paraphrase) Proverbs 11:22.

God’s creation is beautiful! He filled each continent with uniqueness! Each ethnic group has an intrinsic beauty and special grace. Therefore, we must nurture our spirit more earnestly, so that when the physical beauty fades away, the beauty of the spirit can continue influencing others with beauty!

“Getting wisdom is the wisest thing you can do! And whatever else you do, develop good judgment. If you prize wisdom, she will make you great. Embrace her, and she will honor you. She will place a lovely wreath on your head; she will present you with a beautiful crown.”” Proverbs 4:7-9

This is my Story ! What is yours?

How to Respond to the Blows of Life!

The mention of His name is not just a title of a song. Whenever I mention,  even a pronoun of Him, not  just His name, I experience a sweet, warm feeling of His nearness in the atmosphere.  Just to be conscious of the Lord Jesus Christ, His loving kindness and His majesty change the  environment.

In His name we find comfort! This is my story:

 A few years ago we were invited to a very nice birthday celebration and not even  in my wildest dream, I could have imagined what was going to take place. The whole environment was beautiful and very friendly. In that safe family setting, no one expects to fall prey to a paranoid schizophrenic. Sadly, that was the case. We were taken by surprise, we didn’t see it coming until the assault was face to face with us. It was a very traumatic encounter, mainly for one of my daughters.

The other night before I went to bed, I walked down an alley of memories. A vivid memory of that painful scene came up to me. It felt like a stab in my heart and I plunged into a feeling of sadness and helplessness. I knew that going to bed with that hostile feeling was useless for a goodnight rest. But what to do when the blows of life hit us inadvertently leaving us emotionally paralyzed?  My success story over and over again, is just a little talk with the Lord Jesus Christ, He is my Strong Tower and I feel secure in Him. He is my Hidden Place and His name is my Guarantee for open heavens!

I asked the Lord to give me a Word for me to stand firm until that defeated feeling be overcome. John 14:27  shone in my mind!  “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not  let  your heart be troubled and  do not be afraid.”

 While I was repeating it over and over,  the soothing presence of the Lord was replacing the feeling of hopelessness with a feeling of  warrior feeling to defend the feeble. Then, in that peaceful atmosphere, my memory shifted.

Different Aim:

Now that the turmoil of that memory is gone, and in the comfort of my bed, I began to meditate on the persecuted church and on all those people fleeing the war. How they have suffered unspeakable abuse and they  have no voice. How wounded are their souls! Then I began to pray for their emotions, because time heals physical wounds, but wounded souls need to be restored by the grace of God.

The most cruel and unbearable pain I have suffered was the death of my son. Since then, I have set out in my heart not to waste any pain, but to learn something out of it  to bless others.

That night, I realized how easily we can fall into depression caused by small things. The helplessness caused by that memory served as a mean of enlightening  my mind to see the suffering that plagues so many in the world. Then I was grateful, to have relived it  because it turned into an awareness of something sublime, to be a voice for the voiceless. The Book of Wisdom, Proverbs 31:8-9 commands us to:

“Speak out on behalf of the voiceless, and for the rights of all who are vulnerable. speak out in order to judge with righteousness and to defend the needy and the poor.”

My experience brings to mind the Apostle Paul, he was having a hard situation and asked God to remove it. After the third time of his pleading with the Lord for being delivered from that situation, this is the answer from God:

“But  he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”   2 Corinthians 12:9.

This truth has been so real in my life, the grace of God is sufficient for any trial. When we think we cannot take one step forward, His grace sustains us. In our weakness we depend more and more on God, that way we see His power manifest in a greater dimension.

God governs the world and everything that happens has a purpose. Sometimes it may look meaningless to us, it could seem unfair, but when we trust the Lord and His wisdom, sooner than later we understand. With that comprehension comes a peace and gratitude that we can sincerely thank Him.

The Apostle Paul understood that whatever was being a torment for him at that present time, it was only a glorious chievement…

“for our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”  2 Corinthians 4:17-18

When we take an issue that torments us and compare to the issues others are going through, we pray in the authority of the name of Jesus for those people that we don’t even know. Our prayers do miracles that one day in heaven many will come and thank us. From the comfort of our homes, we can pray for others in different continents and God will send angels to help them. While we are concerned for others, God has angels working in our behalf. This is how we respond to the blows of life!

This is my story! what is yours?

When A Love Leaves

“Love never gives up, never loses faith,

 is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.” 

1 Corinthians 13:7

They were young and eager to start a family and a business. Everything seemed perfect for this couple. Forty years in the making produced beautiful adventures of hope and joy. Those who were struggling in their relationship were encouraged by them.

All his dreams were realized, a beautiful family and a flourish business. The respect and admiration that both of them felt for each other were undeniable.  But, one day the incomprehensible happened.  All that respect and love he felt for her, as if by magic, were  changed into hatred and disdain. The way that he poured out his scorn for her, deleted  any trace of  good memories  cultivated in 40 years.

The days after the divorce:

Driving alone was a martyrdom, she was so used to being with him. Now she felt that the eyes of all the drivers were on her. She wondered if they were thinking, “Why will she drive alone in that car?” It was very shameful for her.

A truck pulling a boat, a truck with a trailer, a couple in a car, etc. all those things  reminded her of him,  it was like a thorn stuck in her heart. Many painful years, no idea  what happened.

Love never ends:

The Holy Scriptures reveals that love never ends. Sadly, divorce has come to be the road more traveled by many. Nevertheless, she has  understood the great truth about love. It does not end, it moves to another person.

The love of God in the heart of an individual is like a glue to unite  hearts. Knowing and having a relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ is the key to overcoming all tragedies, no matter how cruel it may be.

After years of solitude with the Lord in His Word and completing  the grieving process, she is enjoying  a life that she never thought possible.  She is full of joy and love.  She has known and experienced the love she never dreamed of. Her experience with the Lord Jesus,  has  transformed her into a confident woman without  lack of anything, because she knows that He is all that she needs.

It’s amazing how things have turned around. Those things that were like a thorn stuck in her heart, now has no effect  whatsoever  in her. No matter how hard she tries to remember a good  memory, it does not emerge.  Her soul is so healed that sadness has no place in her. The love she had for him has been allocated in a different direction.   She is so full of joy with a fresh new love for life,  that she does not  even mind to have walked  that shameful road.  

No pain is lost, everything has a purpose in God.  No affliction is meaningless, it’s producing  something, is working  for you an eternal weight of glory.  2 Corinthians 4:16-18, affirms this great truth.

“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary trouble are achieving  for us an eternal glory that are  far out weights them all.  So we  fix our eyes not on what  is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”

I affirm this is true! How do I know it? Because this is my story.

Life is Like a Beautiful Melody…

Only the Lyrics are Messed up

–Anonymous

Life is full of charms, of beautiful surprises and scary ones also! But this combination of things forms in us character which makes us stronger enabling us to enjoy this beautiful melody. Life is so short.  It just happens as a blink of an eye, as a breath, a vapor passing by through, but there is also something eternal about life which is extremely worthwhile. In our lives we long for meaning and for belonging. There is an infinite silence that only turns audible when Jesus Christ becomes the Lord in our hearts. Then the arms of grace are extended towards us, embrace us and fill us with that sense of belonging. That gives us significance and security.  Armed with these marvelous tools, we  start our earthly journey with confidence.

My marriage life was the most beautiful melody, perfection all around us! The sweet lyrics of joy and enchantment used to attract others to admire our melody. We were blessed with the most gorgeous baby boy that grew up to be the most charming young man.

twenty-two  years later, we were assaulted with the cruelest, most inhuman surprise ever imaginable! Our charming son with a perfect health was poisoned. No, the melody was not messed up, the lyrics was destroyed beyond repair! I have no point of reference to express my pain, my disappointment, I lost it completely!

Seventeen years later, there was another assault as unimaginable as the first. My lovely husband of 41 years had a brain surgery and all of the sudden his character changed, and I became a stranger to him. Another agony, another stage of my life! What’s going on with the melody that started so beautiful?  I entered into a new world of the unknown. The only way I can compare this path is with a labyrinth where I have found different companies. I met head on with divorce! Never in my wildest dream I imagined hosting such detestable company. Eleven years has passed, and I am still going through the labyrinth. Several times I am so sure the completion of this journey is around the corner only to realize is just a mirage. But through it all, the melody goes on! It cannot be dissolved, because life is the melody of God in us. God gave the song in His Son!

How to Fix Messed up Lyrics?

Word is a synonym for lyrics. Words are powerful and I dare to believe words are the most powerful force in our universe. God Almighty created it all with words, He declared, and it was. The Sacred Scriptures in Genesis 1:3 states the first time a word was spoken:

“And God said, let there be light: and there was light.” All good and bad things are byproducts of words. This is the reason for the title for this publication. God spoke everything into creation, except man.

God is One in Three Persons and in Genesis 1:2, we see the first Person of God that is introduced was the Holy Spirit, moving upon the face of the waters. Verse 1 states that God created as an introduction, then proceeds with details of the creation. The Spirit is moving, but until the Word was spoken the chaos remained intact. We can see the awesome power of the Word. Words are not just abstract objects. They are like effective ammunitions that facilitate life or death. The tongue is the vehicle that it is used to articulate words, it is a very strong muscle in our bodies. The Sacred Scripture has much to say about it.